Smiling through the Ache I don't know why I try so hard, yet sleep won't come, Chasing distractions, one by one. Each fleeting thrill, another silly action, Still haunted by thoughts that demand my attention. I wonder if true love will ever find me, Have I never known it, or left it behind me? Another night of longing a warmth wrapping me hits so hard. Why is that someone close, yet miles apart? The bland stare at the ceiling every night, trying to find an answer of everything that contributes to this plight. I try all I got to seek the why, Questions swirling, answers slipping by. Fireworks burst loud outside, a temporary spark, While chaos roars quietly inside my dark. An unrequited love I could only desire, Incompleteness, my only form of entire. Missing and regretting, the heart hustles in vain, Yet the wind rustling feels gentle through the pain. They think I'm the happiest soul they see, "Saddest souls carry the happiest smiles." I search for light in every being I meet, To conquer the darkness my own mind keeps. I strive and I strive each passing day, Through chronic tears, in my own way. Fear shadows me of being left undone, Of dreams lost, of the race never won. All I want is moonlight upon my face, Silent admiration, no rush, no chase. To be seen for the soul I truly am inside, Loved to eternity, while the world glides by.